The Shattered illusions

the nightmare of yesterday,
still lingering in my eyes,

the vain is all around,
nothing but pain in disguise,

the world around me just moving away,
something is stopped,the soul to say.

the journey through the illusions,
turning me towards the seclusion.

No more hopes,no more cries,
every moment in my heart something dies.

far away from the real,somewhere i was alive,
the world of sweet illusions i now deprive.

the moments i had forgotten ,resurfacing again,
the castle of sand, i built is broken once again.

The illusions I loved ,all are scattered,
nothing is there,just me alone shattered.


Vaishali Saral.

Thou The Soul

Sometimes it’s so weird out of blue you see something in dream and when you wake up you think,what was meaning of it. No idea .Every night I sleep with hopes and dreams. tomorrow will be shining once again.I really hate how come I got so busy do not get time for myself.for my own soul.I haven’t talked to my soul from a long time.

I wonder how I stopped listening you,

You are the one who resides in me.

No one listen to me ever,

But you always there for caring me,

I did not know when I got stuck on the way,

You came like breeze of unknown mist.

Several words to describe, none applied,

You never needed any word to understand my zest.

You lived in my dream, in my verses,

One day I got lost in the worldly illusions,

Chaotic sounds, away from the seclusions

I could not hear you since ever,

But you left me alone never,

I searched you everywhere from mob to dungeon.

Forgot you never went anywhere, just here in me

Watching every moment, the shattering me.

The torment you went through, is just indescribable

The pain you bear is just beyond my imagination.

Culprit me of killing you silently every day.

I wish I would have heard, what you say

Meek me sitting you to come back again

Fool me searching you everywhere,

But you never went anywhere.

Deliriums of me, only you could interprate

You are the soul of me how could I forget.

................................................................................vaishali saral

INTRICATE

The more I try to run away,



The more I feel clutched,


The arms of dark sorrow stretching,


Asking me to surrender for intimacy,



I cringed, trying to break this intricacy.



The shadow is following every day and night,




Cringing pain is never disappear from the sight,



Wounded heart still sore from injuries,



No escape from untold mysteries



Wish to bleed out all the pain through my nerves,



No hopes dwelling, only darkness all around,



In the world of sorrow, I feel so inhibited,



Traveling through the every path of life,



Waiting for the moment, to be emancipated.


........................................................................Vaishali Saral

it's so weird feeling i am going through, never thought it would come to me again in my life,a feeling that makes me so wonderful and precious. It's amazing to know that I am very important to somebody.One time it was all illusion and confusion,did not understand what i want and why did i want. I was standing alone in middle of something,did not know where i am suppose to go,suddenly i see something that makes me feel that yes i can also be happy like other people,just like normal being, i am also one of them.

Silence is not silent anymore, it's been filled with color of different memories,hopes,anticipations and much more than that.its something that has diminished all the feelings of hatred and grudges.Everything now looks so beautiful ,tat i wanna love everything. It makes me feel more delicate and fragile. Its not unknown to anybody . I am just loving to be in love.

Key to Happiness

This morning when alarm rang, my mind was telling me, c'mon this is the alarm you suppose to wake,I thought “What the hell” why I have to wake up every morning, I wish I could sleep 5 mins more and snoozed the alarm, after 5 mins it rang again , and same feeling was there . Life is running too fast because time is running faster than life, and to keep the pace we are also running. So many times we wish , hope we could get something more , even if we get more than anyone we always wish to get more .I wish I could get more money , I wish I could get a better car, better home , everything should be perfect , huh , to make everything perfect we loose everything while we don’t even realize that we lost something to get something , Newton ‘s Law “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction, whatever we get from this universe we have to return it in some form , what you give that you get , to achieve something you have to give something . But when you are not getting anything yet you are giving something that is called Sacrifice , but as Newton’s third law implies you definitely gonna get something that’s called satisfaction , peace .Being human we just expect to get , not to give but if you expect something from someone , you need to give something . Because we want everything from this world ,and everybody wants everything , while nobody gets all thing . I don’t say we should not desire definitely we should desire . Give love to be loved.

Bleeding Love

The aching sore wound of yesterday

It makes me cry just every single day

The mellifluous glance of sweet memories

The broken walls of histories

The cringing of moon in long nights

Soothing breezes of twilights

The music in chirping of sparrow

Somebody musing at the window

Vision of beautiful, heavenly river

Thought of rain just makes me shiver

Confined into the world’s mob,

In the dense dungeon  something creeping

From the buried cadaver of memories,

I see, I feel  in my  heart , love is bleeding .

................................................................vaishali saral

 

 

 

Speeding Time

The last day of year , looks it just started and so soon its ending , could not  believe only , happiness , sorrows , joy , love all came in way , passed over with the time , alas! Nothing is permanent , nothing is forever , was watching Anand  yester night ,  dyeing Anand says whatever comes it has to end .so true whatever has started it would finish .last year on this day I was with my family ,was counting days to come to us  now same day but different people , strange faces became so known . Never thought in life that I would meet those people, but they came in life, as they came in life so many already left.

Number of times tried to catch the past and wanted to know the future  , always knew it’s impossible.

Tonight I do not want to write about me , I want to write about life ,and time , these two things always make me worry nothing else, yeah not even death, the speed of time it always makes me worries , I never want to grow up, when I was a kind I wanted to grow  up fast so I can be independent  , I hated it when my parents used to interfere, asking me questions , now I just yearn , wish somebody ask me something , used to get so angry when they used to scold me .

Now I just do so many things , so wrong so somebody come and scold me , ask me to not to do that thing  but everyone is so busy , how can I expect from them , all are strange faces .the world will laugh with you, but wont cry with you .

We always expect other people to understand us, but why we forget that they also expect something from us ,may be we expecting more than needed , everyone has to survive in this world , Darwin ‘s theory “ survival of the fittest “.

I always want to get one time machine, so that I can just go back in the time , it is not like that  I am escaping from today , but everyone wish to go in those days which were so beautiful , but truth is that they cant come back we  can just cherish the memories and with those happy memories we live today .

It s been said we are the mightiest we create our present, future and past , so with the hopes and expectations that the coming tomorrow will be the one which I created today  and dreamed in past .

Vaishali