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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Speeding Time

The last day of year , looks it just started and so soon its ending , could not  believe only , happiness , sorrows , joy , love all came in way , passed over with the time , alas! Nothing is permanent , nothing is forever , was watching Anand  yester night ,  dyeing Anand says whatever comes it has to end .so true whatever has started it would finish .last year on this day I was with my family ,was counting days to come to us  now same day but different people , strange faces became so known . Never thought in life that I would meet those people, but they came in life, as they came in life so many already left.

Number of times tried to catch the past and wanted to know the future  , always knew it’s impossible.

Tonight I do not want to write about me , I want to write about life ,and time , these two things always make me worry nothing else, yeah not even death, the speed of time it always makes me worries , I never want to grow up, when I was a kind I wanted to grow  up fast so I can be independent  , I hated it when my parents used to interfere, asking me questions , now I just yearn , wish somebody ask me something , used to get so angry when they used to scold me .

Now I just do so many things , so wrong so somebody come and scold me , ask me to not to do that thing  but everyone is so busy , how can I expect from them , all are strange faces .the world will laugh with you, but wont cry with you .

We always expect other people to understand us, but why we forget that they also expect something from us ,may be we expecting more than needed , everyone has to survive in this world , Darwin ‘s theory “ survival of the fittest “.

I always want to get one time machine, so that I can just go back in the time , it is not like that  I am escaping from today , but everyone wish to go in those days which were so beautiful , but truth is that they cant come back we  can just cherish the memories and with those happy memories we live today .

It s been said we are the mightiest we create our present, future and past , so with the hopes and expectations that the coming tomorrow will be the one which I created today  and dreamed in past .


Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Near Real time

After long back returning to my own blog , it feels awesome and very regretful that I got that much busy that i could not update my blog , anyways after reading old posts , it feels , time is moving real fast , that 's what professor asked me find a near real time processor blah blah .But i have so many complaints from this time , when i wanted it to move slow it always runs so fast , when i want it to be faster it always seems deprecating .

well sometimes all of us think to hold of it , it might sound weird but not so weird , I am looking for a time machine , in some moment of your life all of you must have thought to find a time machine is'nt it .

Human nature , how to cope up with that always greed to get , however , how much he has , but always lurking for ,that he does not have .
I always fascinate to see how people live in illusions , let me tell you i just love this word and you may find it in all of my posts( oh damn i gotta do assignment but can't concentrate cause being a human right now i want to write , let me be in illusion that there is no real time processors, who can design even eh :-x) , so people living in illusion like to drag other people in their illusion too .
They think other's are a part of it , quite lame .
who cares what is your illusion or imagination , in the end what matters that is reality .
Reality you can not define it who said " truth is stranger than fiction " .

In real life you will find so many strange thing that will leave you awestruck , wait a min did i read this in a novel no this is more strange .
Different people different behavior , it's good that we always live in reality to cure ourselves, but an illusion which can give happiness for a while according to me always better than reality .

Monday, December 01, 2008

Cherish The Pain

Every  single drop of  pain

Oozing through  my vein

Running as blood , so pure

The pain , I never want to cure

I enjoy it, cherish this feeling

Pain only take away from healing

The happiness of conquering  the pain

More exotic than any droplet of rain

I don’t feel anything worldly mundane

Cherishing the wounds, me an insane

Every single moment of pain making me immortal

I be  with you  always , that’s the betrothal

Each shred of time , ill feel you again

Everyday , every money  getting closer to pain.