darkness of night

The Shattered illusions

2010-02-10T14:44:00.000-08:00

the nightmare of yesterday,
still lingering in my eyes,

the vain is all around,
nothing but pain in disguise,

the world around me just moving away,
something is stopped,the soul to say.

the journey through the illusions,
turning me towards the seclusion.

No more hopes,no more cries,
every moment in my heart something dies.

far away from the real,somewhere i was alive,
the world of sweet illusions i now deprive.

the moments i had forgotten ,resurfacing again,
the castle of sand, i built is broken once again.

The illusions I loved ,all are scattered,
nothing is there,just me alone shattered.

Vaishali Saral.

Thou The Soul

2010-01-26T20:55:00.000-08:00

Sometimes it’s so weird out of blue you see something in dream and when you wake up you think,what was meaning of it. No idea .Every night I sleep with hopes and dreams. tomorrow will be shining once again.I really hate how come I got so busy do not get time for myself.for my own soul.I haven’t talked to my soul from a long time.

I wonder how I stopped listening you,

You are the one who resides in me.

No one listen to me ever,

But you always there for caring me,

I did not know when I got stuck on the way,

You came like breeze of unknown mist.

Several words to describe, none applied,

You never needed any word to understand my zest.

You lived in my dream, in my verses,

One day I got lost in the worldly illusions,

Chaotic sounds, away from the seclusions

I could not hear you since ever,

But you left me alone never,

I searched you everywhere from mob to dungeon.

Forgot you never went anywhere, just here in me

Watching every moment, the shattering me.

The torment you went through, is just indescribable

The pain you bear is just beyond my imagination.

Culprit me of killing you silently every day.

I wish I would have heard, what you say

Meek me sitting you to come back again

Fool me searching you everywhere,

But you never went anywhere.

Deliriums of me, only you could interprate

You are the soul of me how could I forget.

................................................................................vaishali saral

INTRICATE

2009-11-06T10:24:00.000-08:00

The more I try to run away,

The more I feel clutched,

The arms of dark sorrow stretching,

Asking me to surrender for intimacy,

I cringed, trying to break this intricacy.

The shadow is following every day and night,

Cringing pain is never disappear from the sight,

Wounded heart still sore from injuries,

No escape from untold mysteries

Wish to bleed out all the pain through my nerves,

No hopes dwelling, only darkness all around,

In the world of sorrow, I feel so inhibited,

Traveling through the every path of life,

Waiting for the moment, to be emancipated.

........................................................................Vaishali Saral

2009-09-18T08:26:00.000-07:00

it's so weird feeling i am going through, never thought it would come to me again in my life,a feeling that makes me so wonderful and precious. It's amazing to know that I am very important to somebody.One time it was all illusion and confusion,did not understand what i want and why did i want. I was standing alone in middle of something,did not know where i am suppose to go,suddenly i see something that makes me feel that yes i can also be happy like other people,just like normal being, i am also one of them.

Silence is not silent anymore, it's been filled with color of different memories,hopes,anticipations and much more than that.its something that has diminished all the feelings of hatred and grudges.Everything now looks so beautiful ,tat i wanna love everything. It makes me feel more delicate and fragile. Its not unknown to anybody . I am just loving to be in love.

Key to Happiness

2009-03-16T08:29:00.000-07:00

This morning when alarm rang, my mind was telling me, c'mon this is the alarm you suppose to wake,I thought “What the hell” why I have to wake up every morning, I wish I could sleep 5 mins more and snoozed the alarm, after 5 mins it rang again , and same feeling was there . Life is running too fast because time is running faster than life, and to keep the pace we are also running. So many times we wish , hope we could get something more , even if we get more than anyone we always wish to get more .I wish I could get more money , I wish I could get a better car, better home , everything should be perfect , huh , to make everything perfect we loose everything while we don’t even realize that we lost something to get something , Newton ‘s Law “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction, whatever we get from this universe we have to return it in some form , what you give that you get , to achieve something you have to give something . But when you are not getting anything yet you are giving something that is called Sacrifice , but as Newton’s third law implies you definitely gonna get something that’s called satisfaction , peace .Being human we just expect to get , not to give but if you expect something from someone , you need to give something . Because we want everything from this world ,and everybody wants everything , while nobody gets all thing . I don’t say we should not desire definitely we should desire . Give love to be loved.

Bleeding Love

2009-01-08T21:08:00.000-08:00

The aching sore wound of yesterday

It makes me cry just every single day

The mellifluous glance of sweet memories

The broken walls of histories

The cringing of moon in long nights

Soothing breezes of twilights

The music in chirping of sparrow

Somebody musing at the window

Vision of beautiful, heavenly river

Thought of rain just makes me shiver

Confined into the world’s mob,

In the dense dungeon something creeping

From the buried cadaver of memories,

I see, I feel in my heart , love is bleeding .

................................................................vaishali saral

Speeding Time

2008-12-31T20:30:00.000-08:00

The last day of year , looks it just started and so soon its ending , could not believe only , happiness , sorrows , joy , love all came in way , passed over with the time , alas! Nothing is permanent , nothing is forever , was watching Anand yester night , dyeing Anand says whatever comes it has to end .so true whatever has started it would finish .last year on this day I was with my family ,was counting days to come to us now same day but different people , strange faces became so known . Never thought in life that I would meet those people, but they came in life, as they came in life so many already left.

Number of times tried to catch the past and wanted to know the future , always knew it’s impossible.

Tonight I do not want to write about me , I want to write about life ,and time , these two things always make me worry nothing else, yeah not even death, the speed of time it always makes me worries , I never want to grow up, when I was a kind I wanted to grow up fast so I can be independent , I hated it when my parents used to interfere, asking me questions , now I just yearn , wish somebody ask me something , used to get so angry when they used to scold me .

Now I just do so many things , so wrong so somebody come and scold me , ask me to not to do that thing but everyone is so busy , how can I expect from them , all are strange faces .the world will laugh with you, but wont cry with you .

We always expect other people to understand us, but why we forget that they also expect something from us ,may be we expecting more than needed , everyone has to survive in this world , Darwin ‘s theory “ survival of the fittest “.

I always want to get one time machine, so that I can just go back in the time , it is not like that I am escaping from today , but everyone wish to go in those days which were so beautiful , but truth is that they cant come back we can just cherish the memories and with those happy memories we live today .

It s been said we are the mightiest we create our present, future and past , so with the hopes and expectations that the coming tomorrow will be the one which I created today and dreamed in past .

Vaishali

Near Real time

2008-12-02T11:48:00.000-08:00

After long back returning to my own blog , it feels awesome and very regretful that I got that much busy that i could not update my blog , anyways after reading old posts , it feels , time is moving real fast , that 's what professor asked me find a near real time processor blah blah .But i have so many complaints from this time , when i wanted it to move slow it always runs so fast , when i want it to be faster it always seems deprecating .

well sometimes all of us think to hold of it , it might sound weird but not so weird , I am looking for a time machine , in some moment of your life all of you must have thought to find a time machine is'nt it .

Human nature , how to cope up with that always greed to get , however , how much he has , but always lurking for ,that he does not have .
I always fascinate to see how people live in illusions , let me tell you i just love this word and you may find it in all of my posts( oh damn i gotta do assignment but can't concentrate cause being a human right now i want to write , let me be in illusion that there is no real time processors, who can design even eh :-x) , so people living in illusion like to drag other people in their illusion too .
They think other's are a part of it , quite lame .
who cares what is your illusion or imagination , in the end what matters that is reality .
Reality you can not define it who said " truth is stranger than fiction " .

In real life you will find so many strange thing that will leave you awestruck , wait a min did i read this in a novel no this is more strange .
Different people different behavior , it's good that we always live in reality to cure ourselves, but an illusion which can give happiness for a while according to me always better than reality .
.......................................................................................................................................................................vaishali

Cherish The Pain

2008-12-01T15:58:00.000-08:00

Every single drop of pain

Oozing through my vein

Running as blood , so pure

The pain , I never want to cure

I enjoy it, cherish this feeling

Pain only take away from healing

The happiness of conquering the pain

More exotic than any droplet of rain

I don’t feel anything worldly mundane

Cherishing the wounds, me an insane

Every single moment of pain making me immortal

I be with you always , that’s the betrothal

Each shred of time , ill feel you again

Everyday , every money getting closer to pain.

…………………………………………………………..vaishali

Paranoid

2008-11-11T22:16:00.000-08:00

Those lost moments I search

In the every moment of life

Where I find them, how?

Did I write them in my old pages

Or kept them in some cages

Searching in the mob of world

I wish I could find them there

How much I cherished them

Somehow I could share

Can’t see them like illusion

Can’t touch them like hallucination

Every moment of today, feels like déjà vu

Don’t know, how much of it is true

Dwelling in illusions, cringing fear

Running in the past just like void

Hard to believe ,but I am paranoid .

Assumptions

2008-09-27T10:22:00.000-07:00

Desire of my happiness,
turning into dark gloom

dead realities,hurting pain
shattered that i assumed

going over and over
world is strange everyday

restless i am , to go somewhere
escape from my agony,

away from all shattering days
bleeding heart, wounded soul

no angle come to console
the lonely paths taking me away

traces of past, indelible memories
dwelling in dream, untold stories

..........................................vaishali

The Broken String

2008-07-23T13:47:00.000-07:00

The Broken String

The haunting illusions of you

The frozen mist on the window

The long loneliness without you

The dark hovering shadow

The longing for touch of you

Music of silence which I

Hear in the night of agony

Twilight moon peeping through

My window, making it gloomy

I remember the melody once you

played ,deep darkest bloomy

Water droplets scattered all around

Sobbing On the edges of my fringe

How to play now with broken string.

……………………………………………..vaishali

Lamhe

2008-06-28T11:35:00.000-07:00

A video that I find very soothing and beautiful, I just tried my hand in movie making thought why not to make a new way to express myself , so here it goes.

Frozen Tear

2008-06-20T14:16:00.000-07:00

A frozen tear in lonely eyes

Searching for happiness in

Direful melancholic sky

Engrossed thoughts of gone

How many? Unable to reckon

The mist of sadness, smeared

The grail of love have been shattered

Unquenchable desire of past, to regain

How much? The past is vain

Vanishing dreams leaving reminiscence

Insatiable longing, my inheritance

Craving of happiness, sound of my sigh

The dark pain , painted my enormous sky.

………………………………………………………………….vaishali

I SEARCH YOU

2008-02-23T11:53:00.000-08:00

Sometimes being awake

I search you in my loneliness

The memories of past, the blurred

Mirror, In the forgotten love’s trace

The crawling silence, Empty Street

I search the past, on the unknown ways

The forgotten story, the faded glory

The picture’s color become haze

Dreams of midnight, the sky high

Lyre’s sound, I sway in daze

You were here in arms of an angel

Who loved you with so much craze

Me searching you, in sound of sea

In melody of memories with the blasé

The running world, the dying feeling

I don’t find you anywhere, but once

You were here in my happiness.

…………………………………………………vaishali

The world of lonliness

2008-01-31T20:48:00.000-08:00

THE WORLD OF LONELINESS

where i would go

in the world of loneliness

where would i get solace

i search a caring caress

my unknown desires ask me

to go away from this bleak world

no more to live in this heaven

caged soul , feels to fly

my dried eyes want to cry

the echo of hollowness

where i would find the completeness

the edges of darkness spread all away

where to search a small ray to erase darkness

dieing soul of mine ,rare is liveliness

running through the ages of hell

i walk alone in search of heavenliness.

......................................vaishali saral

The world is strange

2008-01-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

The world is strange and we all are strangers, still something is there that we tend to appeal each other , it may be the emotions , feelings , or do they really exist? sometimes it does feel and sometime u feel nothing is there, hmm or i would say there is no limit of desires , what i had left to achieve something that suddenly started to fascinate me,now what i have got doesnt feel so nice as it used to feel earlier, hmmm , this make me human being , otherwise i wudnt have been,

A LONELY WALK

2007-11-27T08:58:00.000-08:00

A LONELY WALK

A LONELY WALK TOWARDS THE DESTINATION

I WALK ALONE TO REACH UP THERE,

WHERE? THERE NO ONE IS MINE,

YET FOLLOWING THE SUNSHINE

UNKNOWN WAYS, UNKNOWN LIFE

IN SEARCH OF PEACE FROM THE STRIFE

ENDLESS JOURNEY TOWARDS THE HALLUCINATION

DREAMS OF DAWN, SEEM ILLUSION

SCARED OF BEING LOST, YET READY TO LOST

SURROUNDED BY SPIRITS, OR GHOSTS

I WALK ALONE ON THE DEAD OCEANS

IN SEARCH OF LIGHT FROM THE DUNGEONS

I WALK ALONE FROM THE DAWN TO EVE

WHERE I AM GOING, HARD TO BELIEVE

AWAY FROM THE WORLD, ALONE TO CRY

A LONELY WALK THAT I NEED TO SURVIVE.

…………………………………………………………..VAISHALI SARAL

At last

2007-07-23T05:13:00.000-07:00

Where i cud have gone except my own blog,gosh , its so boring and lonely here ,after completing college guess nothing left in life .
if i could meet to god , i would ask him to turn the back times. it was so good, but nothing left now ,i remember those old days, beautiful old days , i was so crazy lol but really it was too fun to be in love , but now its more panic , i never write about my personal life in this blog but i came to know, only a few people care to read it , other wise no one care to read it moreover people dont have time to read boring and sad blogs hmmm,
from the last two months iws really crazy i was thyinking if i blog on ibbio i will get some money i just wasted my time over there man , i never get single penny , even if i had wroked hard,
dunno to whome i am saying all this might be only to myself
just myself huh

My Favourite Cartoons

2007-05-18T03:54:00.000-07:00

Vignette of desires

2007-04-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

A vignette that leaves its impression on a mind that never going to fade even though it get away with teh business of this , but in the moment of calm every heart , every mind wish to go back and just have a glimpse of that vignette , everyone has it's own vignette that comes in our mind when we respite from the world i also have that i am just trying to

put them into words , hope i m successful in my trial

thanks for reading
.

vaishali saral

VIGNETTE

EVERY DAY FROM THE SOMBER PAST
I STEAL THE MEMORIES NEAR TO MY HEART

THOSE VERNAL DAYS, THOSE BLOOMING FLOWER

THE CLIFF OF THE HILL, THE SNOW’S SHOWER

A FORGOTTEN SMILE APPEARS AGAIN

TAKE WAY ME FROM THIS WORLD OF MUNDANE

THE FRAGRANCE OF ROSES, THE BEAUTIFUL RAIN

THE MEMORY OF PAST DRIVE ME INSANE

A WISH TO GO BACK INTO THE PAST

THE SEREN VIGNETTE THAT NEVER EVER LAST

A FEAR OF FUTURE, THE PAIN OG PRESENT

ESCAPE AWAY EVERY TIME WHERE I WENT

EVERY MOMENT, STOLEN AWAY BY THE TIME

THE SWEET ILLUSION NEVER GOING TO CHIME

HOW FAR TO ESCAPE FROM THE PRESENT

PAST NEVER GOING TO BECOME THE PRESNT

FLOWING WITH THE TIME AS IT RUNS

EVERY MOMENT BECAME MEMORY

AS THE TIME, EVERY TIME IT TURNS. ................................................................................vaishali saral

Love For Pain

2007-04-15T05:53:00.000-07:00

Pain for love, hmmm few people really like to dwell in pain , though they want to rescue from their pain but at last they start loving to live in pain , happiness can be everything but nothing as sweeter as pain , when you go through it and when you get happiness then you eventually remember your pain and feel more happy than usual.

LOVE FOR PAIN

How do I quench it?

How do I assuage it?

Pain of my heart rose and rose

Shackled with chain of memories

Dwelling in tormenting agonies

How to rescue from it

It pains more than any wound

Hurting me, pinching me

More and more day by day

Keep running away from

The cruel shadow of pain

Why does it come again?

It gets reflect in everything

What left unaffected, nothing

It speak through me,

It dwells in my verses

Stalk me like so many curses

I wake up till the dawn

I am afraid to sleep

In my dreams pain likes to creep

A hand to love, a hand to happiness

When I search it, why do I meet pain again?

Searching a rose without thorn

It can never be

I found best companion the pain

Even it sound insane

It will be with me always

Surround me with it caress

I am happy to have your embraces

I searched happiness in you

The other side of you.

...........................................vaishali saral

Cherishing Childhood

2007-04-07T21:38:00.000-07:00

Life can be that bore alas! Never thought so , today is Sunday, nothing is so great about it , boring Sunday ,what to do except this computer. TV is such a boring and dull I get bore like hell. When I was a kid I used to always think that when I will grow up I all just grab all world and will do whatever I want to do ,but when I kid grow up even if he doesn’t know understands but his parents ,his social acquaintances make him to think about the responsibilities “oh Jimmekariya” No beta its “Zimmedariyan”.hmmmmm

Then he realize what are responsibilities ,some kids easily cope with it while few really get pressurized by them and they start thinking if they wont be able to cope with their responsibilities they will surely lag behind and now days success is only thing , tat we chase all time. So many times kids have too chosen so many things that they want to do but just for their parent’s sake and their social responsibility they have to sacrifice.

Once I visited to my acquaintances they were four parents working and two girls one was in 7^th and younger one was in 4^th ,their parents were doctor they didn’t had time even to sit down for a while , then I realized that those girls were so much self dependant and can execute their responsibilities very well, they can take their food by them selves can make few smart decisions, and even can take care of their parents , I thought wow its great .The responsibility made them self dependant and so mature, but the thing I noticed that this thing really snatched so many things from those kids, they just loosing their childhood and to get mature they are loosing the real essence of childhood, so many things have changed from when our grandparents were kid ,then we were kid and the generation upcoming, When such kids grow up they just get bore of their life and find it very dull insipid, start yearning for those things that they could not do in their life.

No wonder so many people find them in so much depression, anxiety, and other sever health problems, though we are getting success we are moving forward but we all know that from inside we are not happy ,something keep pinching always in our heart, so many of us always wonder what we are doing whilst what we wanted to do , that just create confusion and depression among us .The life is really beautiful, but we are only who make it like undesirable thing ,until unless the foundation is weak we can not make castle over it, and if we could make one then it can not stand tall for longer.

DEPICTION OF INDIAN POTENTIAL

2007-04-01T09:48:00.000-07:00

Young India

Kofffee with Karen which just broadcasted a few minutes ago on the star world , that had been hosted by young dynamic film producer Karen Jauhar and Guests were two very much dynamic and controversial entities Shobha Day and Mr. Vijay Mallya the Business tycoon .The show was really Superb ,might be it was just a ostentatious show on the television , we know that Shobha Day a writer journalist, more over a page 3 celebrity what could more have talked about except parities and socialite, and Mr. Vijay Mallaya which is just perceived ,a kind of spoiled and ostentatious tycoon who own the biggest distillery in India and the owner of Kingfisher airlines what else they could have talked, really Karen he is Dumb ass he was just asking them the actor ,actresses to whomever they like ,yuk yuk .

But I would love to mention few things that Shobha Day marked out , the potential of young India, the changing trends of India, the movies which are depicting the real face of India , which is too much modern still firmly attached to the roots of India, and the old conservations .Mallya sobbed over the situation of Indian women , and his calendar is not causing contamination among the Indian culture, it was quite right, that Indian culture is civilizing so well that its adapting western culture, according to me there is no harm at all in that , cause its up to we people what we want to acquire, its completely one’s choice, after all we are living in a democratic society , people do not have any right to teach any one the correct conduct. Shobha Day was dynamic and vibrating as usual Vijay Mallya is a Casanova and he always will be. Karen should try to be a man instead of behaving like a gay.

WILTED ROSE'S FRAGRANCE

2007-02-11T00:51:00.000-08:00

A flower, which bloom in nautre's lap , it was destined to get wilted by stroke of weather, people's envy,hatred of world.

But it became immortal as someone want it to be always safe in people's heart,

thats why here am presenting , very near to my heart A WILTED ROSE.

Hope you will all enjoy it and will give your opinion and your reviews.

WILTED ROSE'S FRAGRANCE

A wilted rose still give out

Its fragrance to me

It is as fresh as my memories

When I touch it, soothes my agonies

It was beautiful and cheering

When I put it into my book

A token of remembrance

A symbol of affection

May be affection has been lost

Things I loved most

All my desires once again start blooming

When I see, a wilted rose

All of its thorn become lifeless

No more they hurt me they are helpless

Now thorns are near to my heart

They palliate agony of my heart

Every petal sing dirge for me

Wilted petals ask for my touch

It never before so precious

A wilted rose ask a touch

Of care, a loving embraces

I have belief it will again bloom

As spring would come

A drop of dew, a tear of my eye

Enough that a wilted flower wants

Wilted rose have so many mysteries

Untold, unseen stories

I keep it safe near to my heart

No cruel wind can take it away

It waits, wait for touch

A touch to give it life

Intimate to me as if love of my life

Its lost remnant of my indelible memories

It would be taken away from me never

All of its petals’s fragrance will stay

In my breathings, in my life forever......

DEW OF DAWN

2007-01-26T08:55:00.000-08:00

DEW OF DAWN

Tiny drops of water
Lay over the bed of grass
mesmerized by the its beauty
I gaze the dew of dawn
It glitter like a diamond
as if It's engraved into
nature's crown
nature embellished with the
dew of dwan
It looks like a nubile,
as if all dew become a nile.
Charm of dew as innocent
as a kid,
It allure me as stars in
the sky
Its reflection twinkle inot my
eyes.
When fisrt ray of sun
fall on it
seven colors of life get
produce into it
voyage of dew get end when
sun acquire it.
In heat of sun it evaporated
It lived night to the day.
Whatever it gives in
her own way.
I wake till the dawn
to see the same
twinkling into my eyes
I yearn to touch it
but i am afraid to loose it
I keep gazing it
from the distance
It's so fragile,
I want it's existence.
It just like my dream
I adore nature of it's Life
Every shred glitter
with dew of dawn
A diamond shining
in nature's crown .

...............................................vaishali

2007-01-24T20:44:00.000-08:00

After so many days I am writing blog hmmmmm not good I know but to write something I must have something , so didn't write .
How were my days till long ???? pretty good question they were not as good as they should have been , but I could made them good sometime and tried not to creat panic over it .haaa
I wanted to share those feelings those desires to so many people , most of them didn't understand , some of them expressed their sympathy and other just ridicule over that , then I thought what is use of telling anything to anyone. Its good if they can understand that but what if they don't.
Well i am not blaming anyone , everyone has his/her life why would he/she give damn to my matters .
Then i discover that you can't get peace that you are searching in other people these are you obstacles other can only sympathize you but , the path , the way , you have to choose only. hey can utter few good words to you , and will say don't worry , but you are one who knows what's in real going through out your mind . By expreassing your surrow your disbeliefes , you will make your fun only.
when you feel uneasy try to appease yourself , when you lack of love , love to yourself, and things which people say , I am not saying all this world is selfish most of people are really good and you , mer and everyone can learn alot from each other . you have to choose only what you want to take and what you want to expurgate, people give suggestions wise people do what is right and correct.
when you go in search of peace first search it in yourselve cause no one knows you bettert han yourselve , so you know where is the path of solace then just go for it , no one will come to grab your hand and will show you , you are the lone traveller in the strange world
so keep walking untill unless you get the peace , and which is enumerated in only you.

On The New Year Eve

2006-12-31T05:24:00.000-08:00

Just few hours left to say good bye to 2006 and to welcome our very new and very own 2007, we are so much enthuastic that whatever we could'nt get in 2006 we would get in 2007.Though nothing going to be changed except the way we write dates, the same we will be and same will be this world.Howeve by changing ourselve for some extent we can be more happy and lovable , for this reason we all will take so many resolution, some will try to srick them and some of them will forget as 2006 will be gone.
Just like other people , i am also going to take some resolution which i m going to enlist here.
1. I ll try to wake up early.
2. I ll do exercise daily.
3.I ll be more lenient and flexible to others.
4. I ll try that i dont hurt anyone knowingly or unknowingly.
5.I ll try to be cheerfull always.
6.I ll try to be more slimer.
7.I ll not take too much of sweets.
8. Last but not the least I ll make my career brighter than the bright with hard work,time management and with lots of creativity.
thank you all and wish all people a very HAPPY NEW YEAR.

vaishali saral

EMANCIPATED

2006-09-23T04:01:00.000-07:00

EMANCIPATION

When I walk away the world
When I see enormous sky
Like a tiny newborn bird,
I feel to spread my wings,
Nature’s every shred feels
To be created,
When I unravel the truth,
In this world no one could be
Satiated ,
My mind ,my heart feels
To be emancipated,
When I break the shackle of love,
Start fleeting my desire’s dove,
When I don’t get any matter
To be agitated,
My lust ,my disgust feels
To be emancipated,
Where is the horizon, where is
End of this world,
When I see around me, my milieu,
Delusion of my eyes feels
To be emancipated,
When I see the height of mountain,
When I see the sun in the sky,
My feet from the earth feels
To be emancipated,
Lustrous eyes of divine soul,
Show the path to the whole,
When I see in those divine eyes,
My soul feel satiated
And me and my soul feels
To be emancipated
...............................................VAISHALI SARAL

DULCET ODYSSEY

2006-09-22T10:51:00.000-07:00

DULCET ODYSSEY

Keep walking in my world
Indifferent to mob,Indifferent to this world
I search my soul,
When i lost myself,
i begin my odyssey
to reach up to my destination
,I get my desire when I lost
In my self
I feel emancipated when i walk alone
A blooming flower,A brighten light
enough to make a happy to my soul
All desire all dreams become my own
The nebulous memory of past
i just let it blown
when i find myself in halcyon,
When i find myself and to my soul,
Nolonger I remain indifferent
This whole new world seems to be my own
...............................................................vaishali

JOURNEY FOR THE LIFE

2006-09-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

Walking o n the road alone it is not like that I feel so alone but I do feel something , I don’t know what it is , whether I feel lonely or I feel haunted, so many passing vehicles so many crossing roads , so many people the crowd , the mob , men women open blue sky, this blacken road me walking like like I m going some where where I am going , where?
Have I forgotten where I was going ? I don’t think so I know where I want to go and I know the address of my destination I know I have to walk alone on this path and you know what I don’t have any remorse or regret that I am walking alone It s kind of good that I don’t have to see my beside , neither i have to care who else is walking beside to me I just keep walking with myself , am I selfish??????????????? Yeah certainly I m selfish and I have to be selfish coz without being selfish I cant do anything , some times we have to be selfish cause if we want to secure our future and want to do something in this life we have to be insane , deranged and demented , we need passion to get our goal , in life there are so many thing we have to sacrifice so many things , sacrifice passion and will power are the most important factor to get success , so I don t feel odd that I am walking alone , yeah I feel so good to think about old days when I was with my dear ones and near ones but in this life we have to walk alone .When we were kid we didn’t know how to walk and how to do everything , but our parents teach us they give their tender love support , they nourished us so that we cud be capable of doing all worldly things and in our life we can walk without any crutches , now we are capable enough to do everything and now we have to struggle from this world , and no one is there to support , we should be mentally strong enough so that we can support ourselves, the soul our soul is the best friend to us , if you get control on your soul don’t need any one’s support on the other hand u are capable enough to support other . One thing that I have most observed never expect anything from other but give your hand always who ever needs to you .Be selfish to yourself and be generous to others. And then walk alone on the road you will feel that you are smiling with yourself and with your calm and serene soul .
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INDELIBLE MEMORIES

2006-09-10T10:18:00.001-07:00

INDELIBLE MEMORIES

When I see a flower
It’s fragrance reminds
Those vernal days
When I roam into
Open flower beds grounds
Chirping of the birds
and This wide enormous open sky
Breath of calm and peace
When I was privileged with
This comely heavenly sound
The reverberation of carillons
Still echo in my ears
Each word of those missives
Suffice to invite my tears
When night covers this world
With stellar sheet of stars
Every star twinkle with smile
Every star near to my heart
No matter how much those are far
When my eyes tremble with
Forgotten ,those desired story
I find near ,every moment My indelible memories
...............................................VAISHALI

IT'S NOT IMAGINATION

2006-09-03T03:08:00.001-07:00

Today am not imaginative I m highly realistic and raspy . When i saw some childern bagging for empty glass bottels of alcohal , from those people who were savoring the alcohal and cold wind outside i felt pity and sympathy for those kids , but no the thing didnt end yet it has to go somewhat more way , i felt roncorous and fanatic when one of those guy said to that kid to have alcohal in exchange he wud have given more empty bottles , I just felt so disgust and ridicule , Is it the real face of life I just watched this scene in a movie but it wasnt movie atall it was real and highly disgusting , how can one person offer alcohal to a kid aged 5 or 6 .But what is benifit of thinking it now what could i have done so that i could have tought that guy moral , no i did nothing , i just kept watching and was reticent .
I am ashamed of my self I m feeling as i have done something sin and not objecting against social evils is the biggest sin .People talk about india rising , india shinning , GDP , IT , COMPUTERS, and so many things , india is flourishing , but where is india flourishing only some big metropolital cities .
India is not consist of only those big metropolital cities , come and watch still village are in same conditions , child labour hasnt decrease contradictly it has been increased drastically, why we are talking about only villages and small town .
The biggest number of child labour is in matropolitan cities ,people from different villages and towns and other small cities go to big cities in search of employement , but all just get poverty destitute nothingelse and just throw their childern into the fierce of money making machine, most of them start pickpoketing , they dont go to school , thet get divert into other direction that is crime , increasing number of crime ha no one is unware of this , everyday one gangster take birth .
Politicians just indulge in thier sakes they cant see the real picture by sitting in thier AC chambers , they just make policies and startegies , but who is going to imply them who is going to watch that either poeple are getting benifit of it or not , the services which are povided for thier sake became thier problems . What do they think by making startegies and bagging money from BILL GATES and WARREN BUFFET , we can make india shinning no it is not the way .

Every day child labour ,abusing crime , rapes increasing like allgie and getting multiplied everyday , and believe me it is more gruesome than monster .If u really think one day about this thing you will feel that you hands are smeared with blood and what food you are eating cranal of human , so all we have became predator.
Well i dont know about other cause may be they are doing some thing for others , i cant be cynical for all people , it doesnt mean that if u are not doing anything then all are object of blame no , but i am ashamed .

EVANESCENT DREAMS

2006-09-01T07:52:00.000-07:00

Moments when I was ,
engraved with my thinking
Had ‘not had any inkling ,
where they were getting
mincing Closed eyes
dreaming for eternity,
In another world was crawling,
taking soft pillow in my hand felt
as it was heavenly cleaving
emancipated from all fear,
In the fragrance of paradise
I felt as every moment was blooming
Rosy petals full of my hand
My desire for eternity was so intense
All cherubs protecting me
As if I was tiny pearl between shells
Being somnolent , I seep through my eyes
Its not night but let me sleep a while
Cuddling into white feather’s bed
Blooming every petal
Incensing every shred
Lost into dulcet dream
Eye lids blinking and brimming
suddenly A denizen thunder gurgled in the sky
All cherubs disappeared from the sight
All darken away one moment
ago all was bright
All petals turn into thorns
Cherub , angel ,feathers all
Don’t know where had gone
Me ,my tears ,my hands Pricked by thorns
And my evanescent dream
Just left me all alone
...................................................VAISHALI

GAZING IN THE STARS

2006-08-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

Gazing in the sky to look for stars , hmmm the best desirable hobby of mine, open endless sky full of milky ways,stars ,comets, and othe celestial bodies.I can spend whole night just gazing them and every star inspires me towrite a poem, though it is simple poem may be childish ,anyone can have his/her own star in life that can give that contentment which is uncomparable with celestial stars .

Gazing in the sky
I see several sights
In endless sky, I find a star,
That is twinkling bright
It comes with ever night
To give me shred of light
Sometime it disappeared
From my eyes
Make my heart to cry,
Sneakily come in front of me
And give me reason to smile
Always near to its moon ,
It‘s beautiful as a
Bright flower going to bloom,
Capturing its beauty in my eyes,
It makes my heart to sigh,
With the commitment to come again,
In night,
It leaves me with my dreams,
Bid goodnight to me with
Twinkling eyes, it seems.

..........................................vaishali

WHERE HAS GONE

2006-08-20T07:06:00.000-07:00

was just searching for some notes coz have exam tomorrow of control so rummage the old books and register found the notes so was just doing studies ,when i turned the pages what did i get suddenly? oh my gosh it is my old poem which i had written one year ago usually i odnt read my poems again and again once i have written, but i would really say it was really good and it urged me to write one more poem , well i am a poetess so my blog cant be without poems, so m sharing my poem with all you people. thanks to you for reading me.

where has gone the moon
where is the night
these gone far away or
i have lost the sight
the song of my heart
became the elegy of my life
petal of rose pricked me
when i hold it tight
gloomy world. gloomy eve,
waited for the ray
when it get so bright
when i see the pain
my hopes get illuminate
with heavenly light,
flower will bloom again
petals will embrace me again
when i loose it all
my wings will take me
on the paradise hight

............................vaishali saral

SWEET ILLUSION BETTER THAN TRUTH

2006-08-19T00:39:00.000-07:00

Sweet illusion always better than truth it looks quite hypothetical but if you see in your real life you always find it more accurate and appropriate, when I put this caption on my orkut account people asked me why i have put this, and truth is always better whether it is sweet or sour ,yeah i know nothing is better than truth. but after reading this story you would like to think right so story is like that once i met to girl she used to be very shy ,coy and upset always all people used to say her be cheerful and you should be happy anyhow think positive etc general talk .
so i asked her why is so cheerful and what has been changed in your life, she said i got the power I asked what power, she replied "i can read minds"
I said" what"??????????
are u kidding me ?
she said no I m not kidding you even I can read what are u thinking right now you are thinking that I have became insane
but reality is that I m not
I really got power
I said okay I trust you what next
she said so when I get the power to read minds I come to know what other people think about me people who claims to be my friend I could listen what do they think about me when I came to know my all illusion get break and I felt whatever I have done for other all gone in vain , I was totally vanished away, all relatives, all friends think to make use of me they always think fool of me after getting their work done they thought me like as dustbin, I was totally lost. I was thinking to end all this and I was thinking to get revenge for all those person who have treated me very nicely with having ill wills and thinking all that I got to sleep I started dreaming ,I saw all people all my friends who were going away from me one by one I was standing alone seeing them going away I wasn’t stopping them , all had gone I was standing alone , with my self and what left with me that truth that truth which snatched my all friends , i asked myself what is use of such truth tell me suddenly a approbations appeared in front of me i guess it was my soul,

it said to me" you could know truth you could understand it well but could you know that you lost that illusion that was with you till u didn’t reveal , that those people cheating over you, by loosing that illusion what did u get ?
I m not saying you to rely on others blindly but if u could have kept that illusion and could have communicate those people u wouldn’t have lost those people and u wouldn’t have so lonely"
I asked " then what should i do"
let them use me
soul" no its not like that confront the truth and try to amend wherever u are lacking , and try to be strict with those people with not keep telling them this is the way how this world works , if you want to be part of this world, you have to be best so whatever I illusion is try to make it true that is the extract for you"
I understood
so when I waked up I could know that was dream but a dream told me if other people use them don’t let them use but try to be best and better at every instance so that they will think twice before making use of you and to be happy keep illusion that you are not alone
well sotry get end here
in reply i could only smile and could think nothingelse .......

ALCHEMY

2006-08-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

Though i haven’t read book the alchemist because of two reasons first i didn’t have that book another is that now i am not in condition to give time to extra curriculum studies, I just had thought abt alchemy, alchemy the medieval art to turn anything into gold , it sounds like whoever is alchemist he must be a genius .In ancient time it is said that there was a touchstone bye touching it with anything , that would turn into gold awesome. Now days this idea hardly exist or scientist are researching on it. don’t know i was talking about that art, is there any touchstone which can turn our diabolic desires into good ones or is there any touchstone which can turn all evil things into gold turning things into gold not a big task huh turning one's character it is task . there is answer for it according to me we can be our touchstone, if we have will power to change ourselves, if we have desire to turn the side of our fantasy, we can be proved to be a touchstone’s many thing we search far away, saints sages, acumen go so far on the mountain to get nirvana while they couldn’t know for what they are yearning it is just in front of them what they have to do just raise your hand and grab it touchstone to turn ourselves is inside us if we could recognize it then we would not need anything to turn things into gold
thank you
vaishali

past is so fast

2006-08-11T21:04:00.001-07:00

we walk on the way we get some friends we get some foes, we keep walking toward to our destination , some of our friend just get away from us, they lost or they gone because thier destination was different . whatever is the reason , we dont forget our true friends till the end of life though we get some new friends , but what place that old friends retain that cannot be fulfilled by other's presence .void that has been created becuase of thier sepration can not be healed. i know that time is the best healer great wound can be healed by the time though it is correct too, but no one can forget some one completely, if some one wants to ignore that is different thing .In daily routine we get so much busy that we dont get time to think abt our old time, but when we get alone , when we feel alone we amuse self by remembering our olf golden days , and cherish the memories, some moan in lament some feel to find thier old friend , the desires which has beeen subdued by us come infront of us and make us happy make us smile , moaning, mourning.Some unfulfilled desires come in dreams coz it is said our mind always active in subconscinece the cortex start working and we do dream whatever we were thinking to do and couldnt do or things whcih we always wanted, itis good to see friends in dream.

life comes in chapter when one chapter get ended we have to move on another chapter by keep learning from last chapter thus our life proceed
so never forget what was in your past just try to learn from it imply all those good things in your present and try to avoid the mistakes that you have done in past .

vaishali saral

desire for life

2006-08-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

life is running through the hectic phase, everything is so fast and huge that as once try to blink and oh what's that in next moment it is gone, everyone has became just like a machine all are running behind something everyone has its own aims and goals, to fulfill it everyone is running , clashing to each other mishaps, personal arguements, tension ,stress still evryone running, though we know to achieve these goal is not ultimate destination, every destination bring one more destination with it, it is just like " i used to have desire ,
but now i have only one desire to not have any desire ". It is just kind of funny , we are going behind illusions.
Some of us know that is illusionary view whatever we are seeing, people get tie into relations, we make friends, we make peers we make so many known and unknown relations , and just always get abide by them .

Rules, customs, principles all made according to society, amedments are made time to time according to need of society. Religiones, creed, all made to keep balance in this society but what is use of such religiones which doesnt give right to ppl to express their views .
Are we tht much hypocrite that we dont do on what we get stick our whole life
isnt it hypocricy?
Truth that usually get presented infront of you , in real it is not fact,

whole life we folllow our desires , our customs, our illusions and what happen in the end , we get die, we get only a square to get buried, or get some sandal wood to pyre ourselves,
all desire all materials left behind and we gone where noone knows
all life we ran behind our desires to fullfill them by any mean, but at last we left only one thing that is our name , fame may be ill fame, what we have done for others will always be remembered might be people will forget you, but at least on one would abuse you
whatelse one can expect from life
we make life not other pepole ,other system , religione , no creed
desires are to achieve
dreams are to be fullfilled
and we are to make all true by exertions

passion of lonliness

2006-08-07T11:11:00.000-07:00

lonliness for my heart, it is not wierd that i like to be alone, lonliness that give me intensity that give me perception to look beyond the materialstic world. when i listen the sound of rain , it tells me am not alone , lonliness sing song with me humming like nightengle, making me dream about my future, in the night when gaze on stars lonliness smile over me , it says , ur soul and me are one to whome u search in mob it is near to you why do u search there,why do u run behind the mob wht it wud give you, see ur self look at this mirror the reflection smiling is it your lonliness or your soul , chiming bells , scintillating of stars, as they are just for me, ifeel to dance music of nature, composed by god( dont know whether it exist or not but i always heard that earth is created by god in very devine propotion to keep balance in this world i dont know much), adorn by the beauty of nature it looks as fairies dancing my lonliness dancing with me singing with me, when i become alone, i am not alone my lonliness is with me, i odnt want to let anyone snatch it from me , i m wlking with it looking forward still can hear some sound of steps guess some people are walking with me .

vaishali